Zack Fair,from Final Fantasy VII:Crisis Core.

It was 25th of January 2011...

I was staying my aunt for a while,doing some cleaning at her new center,which is not far from her house,when I got a call from my grandfather,I address him Atok. He ask me to follow him to KL,and I say 'why?'. But again,I remember what my aunt back in Rompin said to me:

Thinking of that,I agree. My aunt at Rompin (I address her as Mak Eda) also agree,as long as I can take care of myself and not causing trouble. But,one person didn't know my action...my very own dad. Yes,I'm kinda betray him,but I didn't know the situation that I will facing in the future...because before that,I was at my aunt's house,at Tampoi Jaya (I think). At that time,it was 22/01/11,I think. But when the time I met them,I got a bad feeling,as she said:

"Don't tell your dad about your arrival. I mean,that you're staying with me..."

And I know,from that moment...something will happen if I made a wrong mistake...and I was right...

After staying a night at her house,I kinda doing some works with her. Moving some stuff from her old center (Pacific Youth Outreach) to the new center,which is closer to her house and much more cheaper. Well,at least I was paid for RM50 for my services...I think. Huhu...

Then,for the next day,I also doing the same thing,this time I'm on my own. Doing some clean up and stuff...until my Atok call me and said that he want to go to KL, probably on Friday. So,I agree. To make it short,after everything is done,I went back to her house,but my nephews,Syafiq and Amir,are waiting outside at the park,so I wait with them,until my mummy (I mean,my stepmother) called me and ask where am I. So...I lied. But,I did told her that I'm gonna go to my aunt's house,and let her to tell my dad about it. Then i realize...it was a mistake. HUGE mistake...after a few minutes,he called me and tell me that he's not let me to go to her house...but I already did. So,the solution for the situation...for me is...to keep quiet. I thought that my dad allow me to,because as he claims to me:

"You can do anything that you want,and I'm not going to control your life"

But I was wrong. Based on his talking,you'll see later either his saying is the truth or just buffering me.

So,with all the things that I thought that I'll mess up my own life because of my own action,I just keep quiet...because I know,people will not listen to me...I just know,plus my dad's side of the family is hard-headed people. There's no way I could talk to them IN TERMS THEY WOULD UNDERSTAND ME. They would just fire me back...they will...so,I just keep quiet and accept the words that they will give me,even I don't want to.

The next day,Atok called me again and said that he want to go to KL today. At that time,it was 25/01/2011. I say goodbye to my 2 beloved little nephew,Syafiq and Amir,and went to KL around 12.00 PM. We travel for 9 hours,so it makes a new record for me...longest travel of my life. When we reach our destination,I'm start to think,'where should I sleep?' Of course,I would really love to go and sleep at my very beloved uncle,Mohd Noor. He is one of the kind uncle,where he have really high sense of humor,and have many experience,and try to make sure that people will not making the same mistake as he did. He's always cool,even at the most hardest part. That's why I like him and adore him since I was a kid. So,I decide to come to his house,give him a big hug...and thing's get a bit screw up,when my uncle found out that I didn't tell my dad about my arrival to KL. And I'm guessing that he'll piss off...and I was right...

2nd day at my uncle's house,or I address him as Abah. I woke up,helping Atok's a little,and when I return to Abah's house after buying his cigar,he told me that my dad knows about me at KL and he's really piss off,because I didn't tell him. So,he decide to take me and sent me back to Rompin. Lucky,my uncle suggest that i should text an apologies to him. Maybe he'll not paying attention about it,but he'll come to his senses after a while...and it works. My dad cools off a little,and trying to reconsider. But,that's not the end...

After a few hours,war is starting up...all because of my own action. (Wait...don't make any conclusion yet...read until the end...)

My dad kinda pick a fight with Mak Eda...because of that,things get worst when the fight had reach though the family...I mean,my dad's. And now...I know from the very beginning,I have to choose sides,and the worst part is,I HATE IT!! I REALLY HATE CHOOSING SIDE!! CAN YOU ALL SEE?! I JUST WANT EVERYONE HAVING NO PROBLEM WITH EACH OTHER,SO THAT I'LL HAVE NO PROBLEM MEETING ALL MY FAMILY MEMBERS!! I LOVE YOU ALL,AND YOU GUYS SHOULD KNOW THAT!!

And now...I'm kinda stuck in some politic scheme that they created up...and i know from the very beginning when I was 15,I am the center of attention to everybody...where people are trying to get information about me,24 hours a day,7 days per week. And with that situation...I have to chose sides...

But I don't want to. So,I have to do some idiot things that I know in the end,I have to pay the consequences for what I had done...by secretly go to the place that I want to met,like my uncles and aunt. It just that I want to met everybody that i love...and not trying to disrespect people...but my action,in other party's point of view,I'm disrespect to my dad...of course,from my uncle's point of view...but to others,it's my right to do anything,because I already 18,and I can think for my own...

I can't blame my dad though. Even I'm 18,he still kinda controlling my life. (refer what he had told me in the first place.) That because he still want to fulfill his duty as a father. He still thinks that I can't think really seriously...but for me,I'm kinda choosy...not because i don't want to,but I need someone to guide me and help me along the way. If I would work with my bro,Islah at Tesco,I would accept if Tesco offering a job for me,but since Islah is the only one who receive the call,I had no one to help me out,because I'm lack of experience to outside world,and Islah is the only one who got a job there (I think is due to his neighbor that help him to get a job) . Even I know how to use a motorbike,but I didn't have a licence. And the things that makes different between me and Islah is,he can drive a car,but I can't...

Oh well,some people have it's own specialties and uniqueness. I just have to wait,i guest...for a very long time...

Now,I just have to wait what will happen tomorrow...and HOPEFULLY,things a getting better...

Well,i think that's it. If you have some ideas to share,or advice for me,just left a comment to this post. Thank you so much for reading!!

Zack Fair,from Final Fantasy VII:Crisis Core.

It was 25th of January 2011...

I was staying my aunt for a while,doing some cleaning at her new center,which is not far from her house,when I got a call from my grandfather,I address him Atok. He ask me to follow him to KL,and I say 'why?'. But again,I remember what my aunt back in Rompin said to me:

Thinking of that,I agree. My aunt at Rompin (I address her as Mak Eda) also agree,as long as I can take care of myself and not causing trouble. But,one person didn't know my action...my very own dad. Yes,I'm kinda betray him,but I didn't know the situation that I will facing in the future...because before that,I was at my aunt's house,at Tampoi Jaya (I think). At that time,it was 22/01/11,I think. But when the time I met them,I got a bad feeling,as she said:

"Don't tell your dad about your arrival. I mean,that you're staying with me..."

And I know,from that moment...something will happen if I made a wrong mistake...and I was right...

After staying a night at her house,I kinda doing some works with her. Moving some stuff from her old center (Pacific Youth Outreach) to the new center,which is closer to her house and much more cheaper. Well,at least I was paid for RM50 for my services...I think. Huhu...

Then,for the next day,I also doing the same thing,this time I'm on my own. Doing some clean up and stuff...until my Atok call me and said that he want to go to KL, probably on Friday. So,I agree. To make it short,after everything is done,I went back to her house,but my nephews,Syafiq and Amir,are waiting outside at the park,so I wait with them,until my mummy (I mean,my stepmother) called me and ask where am I. So...I lied. But,I did told her that I'm gonna go to my aunt's house,and let her to tell my dad about it. Then i realize...it was a mistake. HUGE mistake...after a few minutes,he called me and tell me that he's not let me to go to her house...but I already did. So,the solution for the situation...for me is...to keep quiet. I thought that my dad allow me to,because as he claims to me:

"You can do anything that you want,and I'm not going to control your life"

But I was wrong. Based on his talking,you'll see later either his saying is the truth or just buffering me.

So,with all the things that I thought that I'll mess up my own life because of my own action,I just keep quiet...because I know,people will not listen to me...I just know,plus my dad's side of the family is hard-headed people. There's no way I could talk to them IN TERMS THEY WOULD UNDERSTAND ME. They would just fire me back...they will...so,I just keep quiet and accept the words that they will give me,even I don't want to.

The next day,Atok called me again and said that he want to go to KL today. At that time,it was 25/01/2011. I say goodbye to my 2 beloved little nephew,Syafiq and Amir,and went to KL around 12.00 PM. We travel for 9 hours,so it makes a new record for me...longest travel of my life. When we reach our destination,I'm start to think,'where should I sleep?' Of course,I would really love to go and sleep at my very beloved uncle,Mohd Noor. He is one of the kind uncle,where he have really high sense of humor,and have many experience,and try to make sure that people will not making the same mistake as he did. He's always cool,even at the most hardest part. That's why I like him and adore him since I was a kid. So,I decide to come to his house,give him a big hug...and thing's get a bit screw up,when my uncle found out that I didn't tell my dad about my arrival to KL. And I'm guessing that he'll piss off...and I was right...

2nd day at my uncle's house,or I address him as Abah. I woke up,helping Atok's a little,and when I return to Abah's house after buying his cigar,he told me that my dad knows about me at KL and he's really piss off,because I didn't tell him. So,he decide to take me and sent me back to Rompin. Lucky,my uncle suggest that i should text an apologies to him. Maybe he'll not paying attention about it,but he'll come to his senses after a while...and it works. My dad cools off a little,and trying to reconsider. But,that's not the end...

After a few hours,war is starting up...all because of my own action. (Wait...don't make any conclusion yet...read until the end...)

My dad kinda pick a fight with Mak Eda...because of that,things get worst when the fight had reach though the family...I mean,my dad's. And now...I know from the very beginning,I have to choose sides,and the worst part is,I HATE IT!! I REALLY HATE CHOOSING SIDE!! CAN YOU ALL SEE?! I JUST WANT EVERYONE HAVING NO PROBLEM WITH EACH OTHER,SO THAT I'LL HAVE NO PROBLEM MEETING ALL MY FAMILY MEMBERS!! I LOVE YOU ALL,AND YOU GUYS SHOULD KNOW THAT!!

And now...I'm kinda stuck in some politic scheme that they created up...and i know from the very beginning when I was 15,I am the center of attention to everybody...where people are trying to get information about me,24 hours a day,7 days per week. And with that situation...I have to chose sides...

But I don't want to. So,I have to do some idiot things that I know in the end,I have to pay the consequences for what I had done...by secretly go to the place that I want to met,like my uncles and aunt. It just that I want to met everybody that i love...and not trying to disrespect people...but my action,in other party's point of view,I'm disrespect to my dad...of course,from my uncle's point of view...but to others,it's my right to do anything,because I already 18,and I can think for my own...

I can't blame my dad though. Even I'm 18,he still kinda controlling my life. (refer what he had told me in the first place.) That because he still want to fulfill his duty as a father. He still thinks that I can't think really seriously...but for me,I'm kinda choosy...not because i don't want to,but I need someone to guide me and help me along the way. If I would work with my bro,Islah at Tesco,I would accept if Tesco offering a job for me,but since Islah is the only one who receive the call,I had no one to help me out,because I'm lack of experience to outside world,and Islah is the only one who got a job there (I think is due to his neighbor that help him to get a job) . Even I know how to use a motorbike,but I didn't have a licence. And the things that makes different between me and Islah is,he can drive a car,but I can't...

Oh well,some people have it's own specialties and uniqueness. I just have to wait,i guest...for a very long time...

Now,I just have to wait what will happen tomorrow...and HOPEFULLY,things a getting better...

Well,i think that's it. If you have some ideas to share,or advice for me,just left a comment to this post. Thank you so much for reading!!